Here is something for you to think about from a book called the Bible, a Christian would be familiar with its contents. Many passages from the Bible seem to think behaviour like yours particularly reprehensible. It's funny that as a supposed Christian you did not know that. All of the passages below describe your behaviour on this forum and on the Icke forum where you haunted my steps and slandered me because you are impelled by a demonic spirit. If even these verses of the Bible cannot reach your heart and force a change in you then you are indeed lost.
Psalm 15:1-3
O Lord, who may abide in Your tent?
Who may dwell on Your holy hill?
He who walks with integrity, and works righteousness,
And speaks truth in his heart.
He does not slander with his tongue,
Nor does evil to his neighbor,
Nor takes up a reproach against his friend;
1 Peter 2:1
Therefore, putting aside all malice and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander..
2 Corinthians 12:20
For I am afraid that perhaps when I come I may find you to be not what I wish and may be found by you to be not what you wish; that perhaps there will be strife, jealousy, angry tempers, disputes, slanders, gossip, arrogance, disturbances;
1 Timothy 5:13
At the same time they also learn to be idle, as they go around from house to house; and not merely idle, but also gossips and busybodies, talking about things not proper to mention.
Proverbs 16:28
A perverse man spreads strife,
And a slanderer separates intimate friends.
Psalm 15:3
He does not slander with his tongue,
Nor does evil to his neighbor,
Nor takes up a reproach against his friend;
Proverbs 26:20
For lack of wood the fire goes out,
And where there is no whisperer, contention quiets down.
Colossians 3:8
But now you also, put them all aside: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and abusive speech from your mouth.
Galatians 5:15
But if you bite and devour one another, take care that you are not consumed by one another.
Proverbs 11:13
He who goes about as a talebearer reveals secrets,
But he who is trustworthy conceals a matter.
2 Timothy 3:3
unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good,
Proverbs 11:9
With his mouth the godless man destroys his neighbor,
But through knowledge the righteous will be delivered.
1 Timothy 6:4
he is conceited and understands nothing; but he has a morbid interest in controversial questions and disputes about words, out of which arise envy, strife, abusive language, evil suspicions,
Proverbs 20:19
He who goes about as a slanderer reveals secrets,
Therefore do not associate with a gossip.
Jeremiah 9:4
“Let everyone be on guard against his neighbor,
And do not trust any brother;
Because every brother deals craftily,
And every neighbor goes about as a slanderer.
Proverbs 6:19
A false witness who utters lies,
And one who spreads strife among brothers.
Jeremiah 6:28
All of them are stubbornly rebellious,
Going about as a talebearer.
They are bronze and iron;
They, all of them, are corrupt.